i swear i'm gonna kick somebody's ass about this shit. i came home from this shitty-ass, fuck-ass, hick-ass town in the middle of fucking nowhere, where i had been stuck since fucking november, to find my house a wreck, johnny high and a huge-ass tiger in the fucking bathroom. i threw up on the floor and pretended i didn't think johnny was a total psycho when he told me he had to mortgage the downtown apartment to pay for it. so johnny just went back into his room and invited me in to smoke a joint and listen to cody chestnutt, so i did that and then got the fuck out of there. i didn't know what to do, so i just ran, but it like started raining and i was wearing the hick-ass town girl's make-up and i didn't want to ruin it, so i like went back to the house and pretended i had ran out to get cigarettes but like didn't have any money. johnny didn't have any money, but he said we were playing some gig or some shit and we'd get some cash for that. so i stayed, but after a few days of hiding from johnny's mom and his fucking tiger, i got a little crazy and went to his neighbour's house to see if anybody cool lived there. i pretended i was johnny's brother, and the guy there was some old dude who said we looked alike and he'd seen me around, which was kind of creepy, but he gave me some herbal tea and when he went upstairs to phone his wife, i poured like a ton of grand marnier he had into the cup. it tasted kinda funny, and i figured it had probably been there for a while, but anyway, it completely fucked me up and i threw up in his laundry hamper when i couldn't find the bathroom. the guy started knocking and asking if i was alright, so i locked the door and tried to figure out a way to get out of there. the guy started getting pretty angry and shit, and i started trying to find like a screwdriver or some shit, but instead found like a bunch of pot in the pocket of this really ugly gap hoodie. the guy finally found some shit to get the door open, so i waited for him to open it and then ran past him and out the door, but i couldn't really go to johnny's house, so i hitched a ride to the downtown apartment, but there was this young dude there who was like paying johnny rent to live there or some shit, so i told him not to tell johnny i was here and went to sleep on the couch. so it looks like i'm staying here for like a while, hoping johnny doesn't find out about the neighbour or where i am.